Thought streams, plot dreams, caught steam.
Hey uhhh what’s going on out there outside the dream debris
The registry, what remains regionally bracketed. Stack it- March getting mad
Bro.
I guess I’m testing out new methods into the response delivered synaptically syntactically.
The Visual clock
Stimulus
Saw it on the wall
I was Over Stimulated
Stemming an Engraving
Engraved by
the definition
By
The one and only
By
the outside blue sky’s dominant hue
And to remain docile - I don’t know?
But I do
surrender
So
May it please do the same to me
In the calm of the storm
And with in the response to it
The suppression level
Siphoned ?
How do we ripen fully?
It’s cold out today.
I am at Woodside- the gym, health club I belong to, writing - What’s goin' on today?
Well, I seem to have had a very joyous experience recently- Yes, I met a dog.
lol
He came into my life for like two days and it was pretty cool tbh. It was nice having him around for a bit.
He was like a poodle esque dog small dark grey color, Very happy, felt very whole. And he followed me around at my art studio.
He had came into the front yard outside where I found him, no collar tag or chip.
And I had a most fantastic day of the ordinary kind with my Family yesterday as well. Eating food for my Brothers B-day, my mom and my nephew and sister in law, happy.
And it snowed after it was 60 in the morning, like it was 60 at 7am, and by 4pm it was 20 and snowing.
Weird
Ya know what’s weird, Iran, lol, my gosh
Bro
What the heck.
Like, is that what I’m actually supposed to be writing about, it sits in my head and heart and spirit and confuses and disrupts my ability to feel totally chill today lol.
It’s just like I can’t believe it, that the people in power are who they are and doing what they are doing but then of course I can believe it, it all comes at absolutely no surprise!
And on Saturday when I was with Winslow, yes I named the dog Winslow, I was about to talk about Iran and I got worked up about it and the dog sort of growled lowly and I was like okay your right, I don’t need to get all worked up and start to spiral.
Because it’s like
Oh man
Lots of hooks to get spiraled on these days
To swallow you into the
Horror shows landscape
Like the involvement of the shifting of powers and futures and the hours tick while I very nicely sit in a place I have so much gratitude and capacity of joy for.
The peace-
The space that has hearts open when broke
And I no longer search but sit here in the vast of what seems to be a way to see the world.
What if it was my last
And I woke up in my eulogy
And I don’t want to have contempt for the men who let it happen, But forgive them like my own fathers ways.
I don’t want to judge -is what I feel on my heart listening to some beautiful old men talk about march madness seedings
It’s like,
I’m happy they can exist in the way for so long it was -it never wasn’t, ya know,
They bloomed with lsd into the post ww2 era peace time, like the most floweriest way to exist here in millennia’s maybe.
And now it feels like sand I am made of
And an hour glass
At my feet
Gaining density
At the thought of all that pulls me into the horror show, I don’t want to forget is here though, and to let the dances reason follow the rule that is what it is golden.
To have Forgiveness of things, but also acknowledging them mutually. Assured in our collective collaborations.
I just ran into and talked to Jack Ryan, Jack is this guy who is a devoted to god kind of man. He prayed for me in the woodside spa area one day, and at first I was like “oh shit people are going to think I’m weird!”
And then Im like wait ! I am weird and I believe in this actually- A moment of prayer is always greater than the material or vain world around us that is only a thin veneer!
Jacks a catholic, retired man, he just turned 70 and calls me little brother, he is a good dude. “I love you” he says as he squeezes my arm.
Sort of scares me but lol he’s harmless. May that be most things in life, in a reality x rated.
Like, What’s going on in the Middle East bro
I have no idea
But like
That’s x rated.
Can we find ways to love in our most harmonious truth ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Just ran into my holmie Spencer and then Jack at the same time and it turns out he was in a club with Spencer’s mom, KC is a big small town, that’s cool though.
I’m also pretty stoned so it feels crazy to be high in these environments on a Monday morning socializing ya know.
It’s fun though like
It’s what life is supposed to be
The club
Earth is a club.
Ya know what the ultimate club is
That you basically get vibed checked before your allowed in, doesn’t matter who you are but if you are the vibe
Heaven
4 real
That’s like the whole thing maybe
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Jack told me to look up the artist
Mike Debus
A local Live painter
Wow
I just love being able to live my day like this
Following through with my systems and tasks
Monday free flow let go
Sitting here at woodside
I Returned the dog this morning. His owner reached out after I made a post to some websites dealing with lost pets.
And now I’m
Absorbing time and space
Living as a free human being
On the planet
During a wild time of spirals
And its details
Still indeterminate
Undetermined
But u understand why no one wants to discuss what’s happening here too
And the fact our president and all of these leaders in power it’s like out in the open what they are doing
And we kind of don’t know what to do as a population about it ya know
And like what capacity do I have for it
To speak on it
Well
This is what I think
Last year going to Egypt
I posted what it was
What more do I need to say
Besides
The boys went ouiji
I don’t mess with DT
He a simp in DC
Here he getting pimped by BB
Praise god free half of gigi
It’s 11:11
I ove a good 11:11 not gonna lie
I feel fantastic in this moment
Like incredible
To live in what can transform and change
Live in the moment
I’m living my life
Looking fleshed
Out
Looking foward
By systems I am reliant
It is not because I am worthy it’s because god is good
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And it’s like war
Economic loss
Like all the things that have propped up the American people and economy and military and it just makes me sad when the population seems just like numb and kind of scared and dissociated and dissatisfied and deceased and desperate and depressed and indecent and the worst part is it doesn’t have to be that way
Like it’s just we don’t have to
We have so much more than we think
We are so much more than we think
Ya know
Like how they fridge do we open our hearts to the world
And let love in!!!!!
The revolution isn’t just for bezos it’s for me
Everyday
It’s for all of us
To just believe in it. World we can share together
And the one I trust in the kingdom that is beyond the material world
Ya know
What if I’d died today
I don’t know just what if
What would I want to say or do
Kind of just this ^
Like I am in absolutely no rush to be anywhere on earth right now and I’m actually around other people all sort of believing in something
I feel springtime summer vibes
I just felt arousal in my lower chakras
I am alive.
May I be In the grace of the time that fits calibers
The masters rendered
In it with the ugliness
And a caregivers height
Stupendous standing lending handing feeding the lands that bear the fruit wholeheartedly
Given the all of my arteries that beat
And bear and break the chains
Wide open
Path narrow
Let’s gooooo
There’s so much that I just don’t know how the world works
I genuinely can’t conceive how grocery stores are fully packed and operated and I have the feeling of just like hoping that everyone is enjoying themselves and having a good time on earth and loving their family and like how do we not just do that every a and I can see why church is a thing because we need to feel human connected apart of the same compassion and believe in the task in our heart to make amends and send signals out
As we are here laying our lives bare
Ahhhhhhhjh
I will continue onward
Rinsing myself welcomed
In the barbers chair
Freshening up
Finding the way, creating and continuing, and to reach the caliber of contact capable, I can.
God bless you may you have a great meal with someone you love this week.
- lovespac3
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